So despite the fact that yes, I do currently have a job, and yes, I will be getting paid this Friday, it still remains that I basically don't have money. I've been getting that stupid phone call from that 503 area code for weeks now, and I finally decided to pick up because I was so tired of getting them. I honestly thought that they were collectors, trying to ask me "Where's our damn money?" for my credit card. But even after I paid some of the amount on my credit card, I still kept getting that phone call.
It was from Wells Fargo, that much I was right about. But they weren't calling on account of my credit card, they were calling because of my checking account. That's almost worse, because a credit card, it's almost expected for that to be hard to pay off, or people to avoid stuff on that end. But checking account stuff... well... it just seems different.
A man informed me that I was about $119 in the red in my checking account. Yeah. I have -$119. How is that even POSSIBLE??? Like, how do banks, let those transactions happen? Either you have the money, or you don't. There is no in between. You don't just let people keep swiping their card, letting them think that there's money in there. Or, worse yet, charge their account for God only knows what. Maybe they were trying to charge my account for my credit card bill or something. So stupid. THIS ISN'T JEOPARDY. If it was Final Jeopardy, then I'd be eliminated because I'd be in the red. Sucks, huh?
Well, the tricky part here is, yes I get paid this Friday, but I NEED the money that I'm getting. I need it for gas and to renew my license. I have to ignore the negative balance for now, because like I said, I need that money. But how can I use the money that I'm getting, if it's going to be in the form of a check? Go to one of those ghetto ass places where they cash checks for you because you have no other option? Do banks cash checks for you? Or are they not allowed to do that? Is that illegal? I don't know... I mean, yes, ideally I would have enough money to get myself out of the red and into some form of actual balance (balance, haha... money humor... XD) And by balance, I mean with my financial situation. So pretty much, this Friday, I'm going to be getting a check, but won't be able to do anything with it. Guess I'm gonna have to stop by one of those places and see if they can help me out... Sigh...
Now onto what pushed me to sit down at my laptop and write out this blog, other than the new things going on in life. I just got a text from my boyfriend, who is essentially going through a similar situation. Now, I don't say the same, because although my situation sucks, his is trickier. I don't have rent, or many bills to worry about paying, thank God. But he does. He just checked the funds in his bank account and, (although I wish he had an online account to look at, that way he'd be more connected to his money) he's just disappointed with things. He's upset about not being able to drive down to see me. Obviously, I'm upset too, but I don't want to rag him about it. That would just make him feel bad. Plus, until I got that check/debit card from EDD, I was in the same spot, worrying about the next time I'd be able to drive up to see him.
Long-distance relationships SUCK. There is no other way to explain them. The whole absence makes the heart grow fonder? Yeah. That's total malarkey. Who the hell says that to someone anyway? Like that will make me feel better? Like that will get rid of the gnawing ache that I have in my chest when I start thinking about him too much or when I get lost in my own thoughts about how much I miss him? People who aren't/haven't been in a long-distance relationship, I feel, don't really understand what it feels like to be far away from the person that you love. Every day. And for me, there is no foreseeable plan for us to not have to go through this. I know it's still the beginning of our relationship, but I've known him for years now. And being far away from him... It's awful. I hate it.
My birthday is next Tuesday. And the plan is for him to drive down to see me and stay the night until like Wednesday. He was also upset because he wanted to get dinner for me, do a nice night out, but I don't think we'll be able to do that considering both of our current circumstances. Which is totally fine, I was imagining going out to dinner with my family as well as him, so it's okay. We'll still have fun eating at the Grill and make the best of it.
Anyway, another long post. I think this might become a routine... but I always have a lot to say XD if anyone is reading this, hope you're enjoying some real-life struggles of a human being. Things are still tough, but I have hope now. And hope is all we ever need.
Later Days
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